13 Years On
I was vanilla in bed
Wouldn't sit on his head
Or make love with a mirror
I didn't have that ego
My love needed no fluff
Sweet love was enough
To feed my libido
As he got off
And I got screwed
13 years since destruction
But feels like yesterday
I lost everything I loved
Apart from the man
Who sunk all my dreams
His actions left me
With an unending scream
That I live with
Each and every second
Of my broken dreams
On this tiny plot of land
A prisoner till my last breath
Won't ever make excuses
For this deceitful man
Who ruined my life
With his lies upon lies
Right from the start
Since London in the fall
Of 2007
When I said no to the mirror
On the wall
In our 50 pound room
Then at Waterloo Station
When we said goodbye
Heading back to Arizona
On different flights
He said
I will always love you
Even when we're over
Worst flight of my life
With those words in my mind
Should have left him right then
On Platform 10
But love is blind
And full of phlegm
That stopped the vocal chords
From asking him
Why he'd say something
So grim
Whilst claiming to love me
A word I don't use lightly
But he did
What a sin
Destroying all I'd worked for
To appease his sexual needs
And to play games
With former sweet, delightful Bead
Lie after lie
Upon my boat
Or up the hill
Where nobody knew
That I was his girl
Another red flag
This man so bad
Even Jesús-loving Miss Daisy
His mother in Phoenix
Was in on the scam
This multimillionaire
Destroyed all my plans
It should be a criminal offense
But the Wicked West
Has no integrity
And people love a disaster
For free spirits like me
Who didn't follow the blueprint
But created a life like a dream
Don't get no sympathy
Instead I silently scream
Each and every day
That I took him back
After the first deceitful foray
With a woman
Who had followed me
Into the bay
Inspired by my blog
So she bought a boat
But on hoc
And he was screwing her
As soon as I'd left
To return to Japan
He was busy, he said
Then when I discovered
He'd cheated on me
I said
Bye bye sailor
But he begged and begged
Don't leave
I love you
And so I stayed
Sealing my fate
To drown in this lake
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